And last night
because I’ve been struggling
with pain
and cannot walk

the nightmares take the form
of visions and
I welcome them with
my other self

And last night
it was the Devil
with the name of
Satan
(which he prefers by the way)
who is angry for being
blamed when he
says he is not stupid
so how could he
why would he
damn humans

And I saw colors
that are not there
and cannot be described
but Satan was 4 dimensional
and in the center mostly
black while
all around him flamed
those colors so brilliant
and transforming
that we knew to touch
them was impossible
even in winter with
its white longing there

And last night
I cried when he left
and my other self
laughed and laughed