March 6, 2018 by L.E. Hansen

Post Surgery 1

This was taken immediately after being wheeled into my room. It is a very odd feeling to be unable to move your legs and feet. You are not even aware of them being there or existing. No act of will can make them move. I found this quite interesting as it also appeared as if one minute unmovable, the next—normal.

And, did you know that there are 3 types of total knee replacement materials? One of these is cadaver. Oddly enough I’m now interested in which type was used for me. I’ll ask when I first see my doctor for the post surgery appointment.

March 5, 2018 by L.E. Hansen

The Dog of Dreams

Amazing World

For some reason I find this photo deeply unsettling.

I was going to practice the great virtue of patience with a consistent knee-recovery regime. The one that begins with exercise and ends with restorative rests and pain meds where appropriate (always). I’ve done quite well so far, at least as this has included writing & notes & reading. And then this. I ran across this photo.

I find it deeply unsettling.

Is this a result of the pain medicine? We have to ask. This photo looks like a person in the body of a dog, or perhaps the other way around. What is this? Person or dog? Dog or person? Hallucinogen if it were not for the fact that it can be seen at any time and with coming or going.

It’s just not right. It’s off somehow. And the article said not a word of this phenomena thus making more of the pause for the beyond of bizarre.

Those all-too-human eyes are not piercing or mean, not even intrusive. But they do not belong to that creature with such understanding, knowing. You want an explanation.

It seems I have to do something about this but what? It doesn’t belong here, but where? Another planet? Will it speak?

It’s too unsettling. It cannot possibly be related to bones. (!) Or heeling (stet). I’ll go back to sofa dreams and leave the thinking for others. And even at that, de ja vu has moved in. Of course. A pillow for my head.

March 1, 2018 by L.E. Hansen

The Dry Bones

On February 19, of this year in 2018, the official statement shall read: Had full knee replacement of the right knee. I find this incredibly fascinating. To think that another human being (along with some assistants) put something into the flesh and bone of another human being that will function better than the one being replaced. Imagine. Replacing joints. Replacing body parts.

It dawned on me after the fact, that I should have requested my replaced bones. I foresee that as being a bit of a problem but I’m willing to argue my way through. I’m planning this in advance as I know the left knee will also need replacing.

So. I offer this note and those to follow as a placeholder and explanation for rather abrupt and elongated silence of mine. I might have commented in advance but was uncertain of how much I should want to share. I’m sharing.